i'm at home on the range

dyslexic ramblings of a messiah

feels a bit awkward reading this stuff, jezz, a bit intrusive. i've wanted to have a conversation with you about life, the universe and shit for ages, and last night i realised that it's a bit of a childish way of looking at things, you'll never understand what i'm going through and what i think by me telling you a couple anecdotes about the army and talking about books we're reading, and vice versa of course. someday we'll spend a couple weeks together and we'll understand each other more. sorry about last night, about getting distracted by the beautiful young lady sitting next to me. you really are more important, but you understand, right?

in a semi-religious, more poetic way, i'm waiting for the messiah to come. i reckon he's already here, doesn't know it yet himself, but at some point he will reveal himself to the world and carry us all forward to a new age of understanding. or something like that anyway. so for a while i thought my friend nadia might be the messiah (sidepoint: she's a direct descendant of king david, which is fucking cool). then i thought it would be my mate sigal, from israel, she has the purest heart the world has known. but maybe it's you jezz, you have a raw passion to change the world, you're looking everywhere for the Truth, you want to be a revolutionary and you want to understand why everyone is acting the way they do. anyway, think about it, if you are the messiah then let me know.

i'll try and read this journal as much as possible (you dyslexic fuck, you gave me the URL as www.lifejournal.com which is completely different)(but i heard today you're officially considered mentally ill and get a free laptop, from your government so i'll shut up). it might be a problem me not having a computer and internet access back in israel, but i'll figure it out. enjoy tenerife, don't miss the plane (really!), and keep thinking.

(i'm buying the book, even though the title, Theory of Everything, is a bit arrogant. )

stay safe, Josh aka Soldier Boy

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yo well cheers and well done for finding out where the hell it is i do my rantings and 'voices'. well ok you were bruttally honest with me so i thought i would be with you as well. It has occured to me that i might be the messiah. Now instant reaction is to laugh aturself, and call yourself an arrogant dick and try to ignore the nagging thought. But it is only when i'm having mega enlightened thoughts anyway that it pops into my mind so then you kind of start to think well does anyone else think this deeply and actually just connect with everything like me? And you think yeah me, very holy people like monks and holy rabbis and ken wilber (apparently).

As for messiah, i'll concentrate on maybe becoming mr president first of my student union. See if i really am the peoples champ which is quite a qualifier for it all really.

Anyway cheers man. and yeah, go and get distracted shes fit:-) You 2 seemed pretty flirty, are there things happening now your back to being single?

Is the messiah celibate.

p.s. your probably my best candidate for messiah that i know:-)

(top 3 anyway)

haha

laters man, enjoy

one love.

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is the messiah celibate???

i thought i was being blasphemous enough by suggesting the messiah might be a long haired drug using atheist.

probably not, but ask your rabbi to make sure